What i did for . . . . .love!!!!???

. . .i put some freakin bangs. . . . . .

and i don't think he likes it. . . .

huhuhuhu . .. . .

what else can i do . . . .

although i came to have his number. . . .

but what will i do next. . . .

call him ? . . . .

naaaaaah!!!!! . . . i don't think so . . . .

maybe i will . . . .

..close encounter . . . ..

oh my gooooooooooood!!!!!

cant just stand it having somebody you really really like just standing behind you. . .

i want to tell him, hey don't walk behind me, please walk beside me, so i can get a much better look at the merchandise . . .

i really like this guy a lot, i dont know why. . .

i dont want to assume things, but it seems he was waiting for me . . . ..

what i dont understand is why i cant gather up the courage to say a word or even just a HI! to him, or much simpler . . . a smile. . . .

Its like im just good at expressing myself when he is 5 feet away from me and cannot even hear a damn whisper i say . . . well i guess i am . . .

and another friggin thing that irritates me is he doesn't even say a word to me, when we are alone. . . . (we had a chance-encounter, more like for me a close-encounter, at the lift where from the 8th floor we were left to our own devices to the 11th floor)

i want him. . . . . . . and im gonna get him . . . . .

for you my blue-eyed-hunk-of-a-sex-machine. . . .

take me home . . . .. .

harharhar!!!!

forever blue

use to like the sound of rain and feel your arms around me together we go insane but i wake up to where i shoulde be i longed for the wind they touched through my feelings but you'll never know till they begins what you want is really what it means, gonna find some other guy for me, and this time it will be just like the wind, calling at the time it must be, and blowing to where i should be, dont wanna be forever blue coz i deserve some love thats true finding it the hard way and wishing for it everyday, i guess i was wrong to want you coz im afraid, im afraid, im afraid to be forever blue. dont wanna be alone i need someone to hold on too, share my dreams with a love, a love thats always true. . . . .

. . .been contemplating . . . kailan!!!!!

bakit kaya nangangamba

sa tuwing ikaý nakikita?

sana namaý magpakilalala

Ilang ulit nang nagkabangga

aklat kong dalaý pinulot mo pa

di ka pa rin nagpakilala

Bawat araw sinusundan

di ka naman tumitingin

anung aking dapat gawin

Bakit kaya umiiwas

binti ko baý mayroong gasgas

nais ko nang magpakilala

Ditoý mayroon sa puso ko

munting puwang laan sayo

maari n bang magpakilala

bawat araw sinusundan

di ka naman tumitingin

anong aking dapat gawin

kailan, kailan mo ba mapapansin ang aking lihim

kahit ano'ng aking gawin, 'di mo pa rin pansin

kailan, kailan hahplusin ang pusong bitin na bitin

kahit ano'ng gawing lambing, 'di mo pa rin pansin

Ditoý mayroon sa puso ko

munting puwang laan saýo

maari n bang magpakilala

bawat araw sinusundan

di ka naman tumitingin

ano'ng aking dapat gawin

kailan, kailan mo b mapapansin ang aking lihim

kahit anung gawin, di mo pinapansin

kailan, kailan hahaplusin ang pusong bitin na bitin

kahit anung gawing lambing di mo pa rin pansin

Kahit ano'ng aking gawin, 'di mo pinapansin . . .

disappointments and im growing w e a r y . . . . . ..

. . .trying to get through. . .
. . .wanting so much to make it on my own. . . .
. . .but why these situations presents them in the most difficult manner . . .

. . im so much yearning for my sweet angel. . .
. .. the reason for all these sacrifices. . .
. . .will my angel understand....

. . .i want to let it all go. . . .
. . .but they always find there way to me. . .
. . its eating me up. . .